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When Stupidity, Greed, and Tech Collide

In my last post, I provided the URL to what I thought was possibly the worst video game ever made.

I was wrong.

DaveVB left a comment with a reference to the game he suspects is the worst game ever made.

He was right.

I watched the gameplay videos, and couldn't believe it. There are no words. You just have to go see for yourself. I laughed. I laughed 'til I cried, and then I stopped laughing and simply cried.

Aside from the accomplishment of having run up against the physical universal limit for idiocy, the fact alone that the game was available for review is astonishing.

There's a process to these things. To get even the most offensively stupid thing made, people often need to work together and take it step by step. This doesn't just go for video games, but for most of the products in this world that were tarded, tarded again, and so retarded.

This video game is a good example, though.

Think about it. People had to:

  1. Come up with the idea for the game.
  2. Pitch the game to someone.
  3. Get the game approved for development.
  4. Get development funded.
  5. Produce milestones along the way to show how awesome the game is going to be.
  6. Finish development.
  7. Have the associated materials created - artwork, the box, manuals, keyboard shortcut guides, etc...
  8. Have the game published.
  9. Get retailers to carry the game.
  10. Get the game distributed.

I'd add "Sell the game," but I don't think that was a problem they had to face.

This is a long process. From inception to completion of the project, months must have passed. From the look of the game, it could have just been days, but because the devs were so clearly inept, I'm assuming it took them a long time to round up a bunch of demo/example code they could paste together around a few ghastly 3D models.

How does this happen?

How is it that projects like this get funded and completed while other projects - projects that don't suck dog balls - are never given a chance?

There are many factors here. Networking, nepotism, and other factors unrelated to the product can come into play, but these aren't the things I'm thinking of.

--- The Rodawgg's Very Own Experience with Money Thrown From and To Stupidity ---

It was about seven years ago when a friend-of-a-friend contacted me about starting a business.

I won't use any names, as I think he's part of the mafia and would have my intestines pulled out through a hole in my knee if he found out I was talking about him. For the sake of this post, we'll call him Francis. I like that name. It's a little girly-boy's name. Now I really hope he doesn't find this. I don't think he'd like it if he found out I gave him a little girly-boy's name.

Francis has an uncle. Francis's uncle isn't intimidating at all. He's a weaselly little man who'd look right at home in a dilapidated old GMC van with tinted porthole windows in the back and an airbrushed tiger on the side, parked outside an elementary school.

We'll call the uncle Piddlesworth.

So, Francis and Piddlesworth.

Francis, aside from running a construction company, made a little money on the side selling huge quantities of cocaine. I don't know exactly how much he made. He wouldn't tell me.

I tried to find out once how much money someone makes by selling coke. I had this conversation with Francis:

Rory: So... you're probably the only coke dealer I'm ever going to meet, and I'm curious - how much money do you make? You must rake it in.

Francis: [befuddled] You don't ask that question. It's not polite to ask questions like that about business.

Rory: Uh. You're a coke dealer. That's not business so much as it is crime. And I can't look up the average income of people in your line of work the way I could, say, a doctor. So... how much?

Francis: ...

He didn't answer. I eventually got it out of him that he kept about $40,000 in cash in a mattress in his house, though he wouldn't disclose which mattress. It's not like I could have gotten to it anyway. Most of the rooms of the house were connected by a central room - a hub of sorts - and the main decoration in the room was a small pen in which there were, like, fourteen rottweilers drooling and licking blood off the floor from whatever/whoever was fed to them earlier that day.

Anyway, Francis wanted to branch out into a new area of business - diversify his portfolio, if you will. He wanted to get into tech. Tech, construction, and coke. A true Renaissance man. He had a stupid haircut, too. All the money in the world, and he looked like a lumpy mushroom.

A lumpy mushroom who needed help.

That's when he came to me. Rory Blyth. The Smartest Man in the World. Soldier of fortune. Genius. Friend of Man. The beauty of the world. The paragon of animals.

Messiah.

He and Piddlesworth wanted to meet to discuss a multi-billion dollar idea. Coke tends to lend people a little extra confidence and effect delusions of grandeur, or, in the case of these slappies, delusions of slightly above average intelligence.

The basic idea was actually sound. I don't know that it would have made billions of dollars - not even with my involvement - but it had the potential to make us tens of dollars each month, so I was on board. Not for any pay up front, but for the promise of the dream. Ice-cream money... bus fare... I'd never want for loose change again if this project succeeded.

Francis, being in construction, knew a thing or two about the construction business. Or at least he had a couple working theories about things in the construction business. Ballpark figures. Gut feelings. Blind guesses. Answers from reading tea leaves. Advice from fortune cookies. As much knowledge about the construction business as a Frenchman has about soap.

Whatever.

Whether through conscious thought, overhearing someone else talking, or, most likely, divine intervention, Francis had an idea.

He wanted to build a site where brokers of used construction equipment (bulldozers, jackhammers, union strikes, etc.) could post their stuff and then auction it off. It was like eBay except that it was focused at this one niche, and nobody would ever use it. Otherwise, the similarities were striking. eBay had a web site - we were going to have a web site... I'm serious. Save a few superficial differences and eBay's profitability, they could have been the same site. Only their mothers could tell them apart.

I agreed to do it, and I did it. I'm a man of my word. If I say I'm going to do something, and if you believe me, I can seem very reliable.

This detail will matter not a whit to my non-geek readers, but I built the site using JSP. If I recall correctly, I used PostgreSQL on the back end because I didn't like the way MySQL performed a lock on your server farm every time you wanted to look at a record.

It worked. It was slick. We needed a graphic artist to come along and wipe some of the vomit off the UI, but it was functional.

So far so good, right? We had a working site based on a solid idea from someone who lowered the average IQ of a room by walking into it. This is an accomplishment considering he had already lowered the average IQ of every living thing on the planet including rocks and dirt and algae just by being born. It's like an intellectual version of the limbo. This guy was a natural. The answer to "How low can you go?" was "Very."

Along the way, Piddlesworth - because he was the oldest - had appointed himself the Business Manager. That's like being named the Treasurer of a Tree House Club when you're a kid. There's that one kid who has nothing at all to contribute, but everybody's too nice to send him home to be stupid by himself, so you make him the Treasurer. The post is made all the more useless because there's no money in a children's Tree House Club. The Treasurer has nothing to manage, and that's good - that's how you want it. Give the stupid kid a title, but no power. It's like the Royal Family.

Despite his lack of worth as a human being, Piddlesworth had things he wanted to bring to the "business," and he was insistent about it. Like a male cat in heat during the spring who smells your female cat and claws at your door and makes that weird "RRRRRRRMMMMMMMRRRRRRROOOOOOOOWWWWWWMMMMMMRRRR" noise, apparently Cat for "Bring out the shiznitches or I'm going to sneak in and pee in your shoes the first time you leave the window open this fine season," Piddlesworth wouldn't give up.

Since I didn't want Piddlesworth going #1 in my shoes, I heard him out and tried my best to honor his wishes while not laughing and also not barfing in my throat so I could choke and die rather than endure the Sledgehammer of Maximum Stupidity he wielded with such grace.

Piddlesworth had at some point in his life, despite his being a chance evolutionary dead-end mutant of simian life, managed to amass a little money. $10,000. That's what he had.

He had these $10,000 when he was living in LA. It was gas to power the Stupidmobile.

This "man" hired a team of voice actors, brought them into a studio, and then paid them to read various children's fairy tales into microphones for preservation on tape-based media. The stories were all in the public domain. Stuff children love that was written in Middle English and requires an advanced degree in Useless Skills to be understood. Anybody who's ever been outside or gone out on a Friday night is SOL.

If you aren't familiar with children's literature of a few hundred years ago, think "The Canterbury Tales," only more depressing. If you aren't familiar with "The Canterbury Tales," then you're stupid. Still, to give you another reference point should your ignorance get in the way of my story, just imagine what would happen if Free Willy had been written and produced in France. That's kind of like old school children's stories. Sad and scary. Not at all suitable for children.

$10,000 spent on audio recordings of children's stories from a time when children didn't have time for children's stories because they were too busy shoveling shit, being sold, or married off to high falootin' families that had, like, a hundred times more shit to shovel than any of the other poor bastards who lived in the ghetto. There was no such thing as focus-groups back then, so there wasn't much feedback on the quality of these tales.

As a mental exercise just now, I sat and stared at the wall for ten minutes while trying to think of a worse way to spend $10,000. All I could come up with was an enema. A really, really big, really, really fancy enema.

And how, I'm sure you're asking, does this foolish project figure in to the construction machinery auction site?

Piddlesworth wanted to have a landing page page for the site where the user would make one (1) of two (2) choices:

1. Enter the auction portion of the site to buy and sell equipment at rather high prices. This area would appeal mainly to businesspeople who represent major manufacturing companies.

2. Pay $100 for lifetime access to the audio recordings of children's stories you could go and download for free, and not be able to understand for free, from Project Gutenberg.

Side by side. Same page.

I'm not kidding.

It'd be like walking into your Swiss Bank to make a six-figure withdrawal, but being lured away at the door to ride a pony while eating cotton-candy. Or churros. Churros are good, but I don't think they have them in Switzerland. Or cotton-candy. Do they have cotton-candy in Switzerland? What about ponies?

I obviously didn't do my research here. If only there were a way to go find the answers to these questions and then come back to update the text.

Too late now.

The partnership ended a couple weeks later. Francis and Piddlesworth called me to a meeting at a Ramada Inn on the edge of town. That alone could have dissolved our relationship, but I wanted to give them a chance. Part of me was resistant to the thought that human beings can be so mentally deficient. I wanted to see them do one smart thing, and, at this point, "smart" was a term I'd adjusted to put success within their reach. I set my standard according to a study in which bonobo chimps preferentially ate their own poop rather than receive electric shocks while self-administering heroin. There was no right answer, so I figured a win was guaranteed, and I could move on, my faith in humanity restored.

There was a lawyer there. We were going to make our company official. We'd been advised to form an LLC. I felt like I was sitting in front of a judge, pen in hand, being asked to sign a marriage certificate so I could spend the rest of my happy life with Mrs. Frogbottom, known throughout the carnie world as The Living Armpit of Halitosis County.

Just as I'm protecting the identities of Francis and Piddlesworth (more accurately, protecting myself), I won't give the name of the lawyer. For the purposes of this tale, we shall call him Moron. Has a nice ring to it.

Moron was three hours late and had smeared lipstick and an STD on his face when he arrived. He smelled of urine and herrings.

He greeted us, calling us "gentlemen," and produced a stack of paper from what looked like a doctor's bag. Like the rest of him, I didn't ask.

I wondered why there was so much paper for what should have been a more or less standard set of forms that lawyers had perfected over the years. What I didn't take into account was that you generally have to write larger when using crayons. Plus, every few pages there were pictures of things - dogs, cats, kids holding balloons. I'd never seen illustrated business forms before, and I wondered why more people didn't use them. Because, I realized, most businesspeople are in it for the money. That was why.

I stood up, punched everybody in the face, and went home.

Had I stuck around and signed the forms, I would have been stuck in this business until I filed for a divorce and entered the witness protection program.

And that, my friends, is how really stupid businesses come to be. Idiots somehow make money and then want to make more, but they can't repeat the accident that led to the initial acquisition of dough.

Oh, and Piddlesworth wanted to name the company "Iddybot" - oddly, the domain name was available.

Iddybot.

What the feck is an Iddybot?

Form small groups and discuss.


[Gratuitous Links to my Homies - Not Part of the Post Above] [Learn More]

- Kellyhelderboobs - I was introduced to this site by a friend of mine, and this girl is funny. She's recruited a few friends to start a sort of blog-magazine thing. I've tried to do that a few times over the years, and it always fell apart, but maybe she can hold it together. Regardless, she's a good writer, and her writing's fun.

- Clifton Craig - Mr. Trash-Talky Coder Guy. We've been meaning to do a sort of Battle of the Geeks over video iChat - to be recorded and made available for your enjoyment. Because my schedule's sort of a wet slippy thing that's constantly flicking around and getting stuck to stuff before breaking off and getting affixed to the bottom of someone's shoe, we haven't gotten it done, but we shall. Oh, yes, Cliff - we shall!

- Yuvi - Yuvi did something really cool for me this week. Long story, but it was quite an honor. So, thanks, mister :)

Published Friday, May 02, 2008 4:21 PM by Rory

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Comments

 

Celes said:

Iddybot - n. singular - either a robot, or something purchased by someone who is an idiot or an idealist.

See "Istppgut"

But really, did you punch anybody in the face? Because I would really like to see that... in your next video maybe. Rory tares off his shirt and challenges some random guy in the street (or himself if no one passes). Kind of like fight club only... only...

Okay, exactly like fight club. Maybe sing while you're doing it. That could be a fun twist.
May 2, 2008 5:55 PM
 

Rory said:

Celes -

"Iddybot - n. singular - either a robot, or something purchased by someone who is an idiot or an idealist."

That's not bad. It actually kinda makes sense. My enthusiasm is tempered only by the knowledge that Piddlesworth isn't capable of most higher brain functioning, and so the word, if we're to honor its source, really can't mean much of anything at all.

However, I'm tempted to go down the this-has-something-to-do-with-the-word-"idiot" road.

In a way, these gents were also a bit robotic. Robots don't think - they just do. There is no Why. They were, methinks, programmed to imitate the behavior of people around them. They appeared human to the casual inspection, but a closer look revealed a frustratingly complex form of unstoppable stupidity.

No thought.

Only actions.

"But really, did you punch anybody in the face?"

Anybody?

I punched *everybody* in the face.

Frances. Piddlesworth. Moron. The bartender. A vacationing family.

The only person I didn't punch in the face was somebody's dog. I pet the dog and said, "Who's da goodest widdle doggie in da ho' wide world!? Who is he?! Oh, yeah, it's YOU! You da cutest widdle doggie in da ho' wide world! Oh, yes! Dats a good widdle doggie! Dats a good widdle cutie doggie!"

"Because I would really like to see that... in your next video maybe. Rory tares off his shirt and challenges some random guy in the street (or himself if no one passes). Kind of like fight club only... only..."

Until people start sending me big money, I'm not taking my shirt off.

I look good, too. Slender, but toned.

Line up, ladies. Get those credit cards ready. If we reach $10,000 donated, I'll make a three minute video in which I engage in all sorts of activities with my shirt off. There will be some slow-mo running shots, heavy lifting shots, and maybe even a shot of me headbutting  an unwilling participant.

You know y'all want it. Don't be shy. Step right up. If a few of you gave just $1,000 each, we could be at $10,000 in virtually no time at all.

If we hit $50,000, I'll throw in some shirtless ironing.
May 3, 2008 1:22 PM
 

Chris said:

"There's a process to these things. "

http://www.garagegames.com/my/home/view.profile.php

Actually Rory, I am part of a site called Garage Games. Anybody can make a video game pretty easily with Torque script.

You just buy premade mesh items and script them into a DOS command line compiler. It's not that hard actually. It makes the MS DX sdk look much harder in comparison.

BTW, I'm actually buying and selling BMWs now. You may appreciate that as a Mini Cooper owner. If anybody is interested I am cash buying repo and wholesale 2003-2004 745is. I can get you a way below dealer price in the US or Canada if you contact me. Like < 40k for a US sale or < 50k for a CAD sale for a really well kept vehicle w/carfax report. Since I am using cash I can get low prices, but you are free to use financing to purchase them from me. I need to do this since our first round of VC is 2 or more months away.

Thanks!
May 3, 2008 1:51 PM
 

Chris said:

http://www.garagegames.com/my/home/view.profile.php?qid=52582

Yeah, I had pasted that link from "myaccount". That's the link to my profile and I have made games wayyyyy worse than those listed above!
I just never published them.
May 3, 2008 1:54 PM
 

Rory said:

Chris -

"Actually Rory, I am part of a site called Garage Games. Anybody can make a video game pretty easily with Torque script."

Yeah - when I saw the insanely horrible game DaveVB pointed to, the first thing I thought of was Torque.

I used to be part of a game development group here in town, and the Torque guys were right down in Eugene, so we got them to come up and give presentations on their wares. It was awesome. I also got googley-fan-eyes because one of them had worked on Stellar 7 and one of the Space Quest games. Stellar 7 rocked, as did most of the SQ series.

But the simplicity of Torque blew us away, and the driving game looked like it was just a rehash of one of the default game foundations. The physics were so obviously without tweaking - driving up and over mountains with zero change in speed whatsoever - linear acceleration - blah blah blah.

What amazes me is that someone actually put out a game that, whether with Torque or another engine, was a nearly unmodified helper platform upon which to build your game.

Messed up.

"BTW, I'm actually buying and selling BMWs now. You may appreciate that as a Mini Cooper owner."

Whoah. That's a big change.

Not a bad idea at all, though, while waiting for funding.

Beemers lose value so quickly that they make for a great commodity (I figure you're unlikely to get any customers through my site, so this ought to be an OK discussion).

You get all the people who find status in one of several automotive manufacturers, sell them last year's top of the line at a price that would otherwise fetch 'em a Geo Metro or something, and there you go.

If you're a good salesman, you could do quite well in that area. One of my cousins is an auto broker. He deals in high-end used luxury vehicles, taking orders from his customers, and then going out and finding the vehicle they want at the price they want. You should consider that, too. He's done *really* well. I can't stand him, but that's another story and has nothing to do with his line of work.

Should be good business in LA, too, where people are so concerned with image. I like looking good - I like my clothing - I like my hairdos - I like my fragrances - but none of it is for status or image - it's honest style. The plastic people down there give me the fekking heebie-jeebies.

Squeeze them for everything you can.
May 3, 2008 2:09 PM
 

Chris said:

Thanks Rory. Value is in the eye of the beholder. Depreciation is reserved for dealers, not for buyers, esp not for buyers of my autos. I am counting that people will fall in love with the luxury of the 7 series and go with the Kelly BB value when considering.
May 3, 2008 2:14 PM
 

Chris said:

"I figure you're unlikely to get any customers through my site"
http://www.flickr.com/photos/8606487@N03/2462793760/sizes/o/
I just negotiated the purchase of this car off ebay on the phone.  I am going to grab it Monday. I only bought this one on ebay because it was cheaper than at repo. This car has a clean carfax report. If anybody wants it contact me immediately. You can come see it first if you like. 42k USD/52k CAD. I will provide you whatever documents you need for financing from your bank.
This is a 2004 BMW 745i with 75k miles. You can pick it up Tuesday morning if you want it. I will provide the free carfax report to the buyer!
codiplex__at__gmail.com Thanks again!
May 3, 2008 2:58 PM
 

Celes said:

"Until people start sending me big money, I'm not taking my shirt off."

You already did... remember? In that Neopoleon advertisement?- in slow motion even...

So there's no use trying to charge for it now. All the ladies... they get it for free.

May 4, 2008 6:40 AM
 

Ian said:

"If we hit $50,000, I'll throw in some shirtless ironing."

What else do you iron? I only iron shirts.

And then only if there's something important I have to do. Like an evening of watching a shirtless ironing video of Rory. I guess thats a pressed shirt and pants kind of evening..

That was a lot less creapy in my head. So was that..
May 5, 2008 10:10 AM
 

Josh Baltzell said:

It's clear to me that you have not done the appropriate legwork to decide what game is the worstest.

Prepare to have me blow your mind!

http://www.gamespot.com/pc/puzzle/dirtydancingthevideogame/index.html?tag=result;title;0
May 5, 2008 12:21 PM
 

Rory said:

Chris -

"Thanks Rory. Value is in the eye of the beholder."

Absolutely. I learned that in college.

I spent a couple years at one of the best, most expensive colleges in the country. It was amazing. I couldn't finish because I couldn't afford it. I was never able to afford it, but I didn't understand the numbers being thrown around - they didn't compute. It wasn't until my second year that I lost it and had panic attacks for months straight after realizing how much money I owed and how long it would take to pay it back.

Although I loved that school and felt more at home there than I had anywhere else in my life (before or since), I suddenly woke up and realized that it was insane. No education should cost that much. It's disgusting.

But there were many people who *could* afford it and who finished. Most of them were rich beyond belief, though. For them, the education was worth it.

I made a few friends at Sarah Lawrence College. They're on the other side of the country, and theirs is (or was at the time) the most expensive school in the nation. I found them all a bunch of intellectually anemic snobby fops, but they thought they were the smartest people in the universe. I suspect it was the cost of the education that led them to believe they were so bloody amazing. Money does that. I learned that when working for myself - the more I charged, the more I was in demand.

Value can be complicated. In Portland, we have this thing called First Thursday. It's a huge art thing that involves art dealers around a certain part of town, a bunch of clubs, street vendors/performers, and huge, lovely crowds of people.

My crew stopped at a gallery lined with what I thought were ordinary looking photos. Nothing at all of interest. Seriously dull.

My friend had the catalog with all the prices. He pointed to a photo that I thought was a tiny bit interesting. He asked me how much I'd pay for it. I lowered my voice so as not to insult anyone (this stuff was obviously important to *someone*, and I don't want to hurt that person just because I'm apathetic about his work) and said I'd consider paying as much as $50 for the photo in question. I was serious - if the guy was a good salesman, I'd consider paying for one of his photos.

My friend responded, "How about $7,500?"

My eyes popped out of my head. But the guy probably sells these things, and I bet it has to do with the price. Some people with money confuse wealth with sophistication. They think they have taste because they have the cash, but it's just not the case. That's why you see so many doctors wearing tasseled penny-loafers sans socks on their days off. The shoes themselves cost hundreds of dollars, and that, to the cash-o-phile must mean that they're elegant or whatever.

I hate few things more than the sockless wearing of tasseled penny-loafers. Penny-loafers in general piss me off, but that I'm-a-doctor-and-I-can-be-identified-by-my-ugly-shoes thing pisses me off even more.

Back to it, though, people buy the guy's photos because... well, I just can't imagine it's because they like them. It's because they *want* to like them *because* they're expensive.

It's messed up.

Not the same thing as a car, though. A car has practical value. Adding luxurious features to a car is, to me, perfectly acceptable. I love cars. They symbolize freedom. I can hop in the thing and head to another country if I want to. I also like fun, fancy stuff, so my car's decked out, but the most important thing is the car itself, and the idea of what it offers.

I couldn't hop in a photo and head for the beach.

$7,500 is ridiculous for a mundane snapshot.

I guess this is the really, really long way to say, "I agree."

"Depreciation is reserved for dealers, not for buyers, esp not for buyers of my autos."

The depreciation of luxury autos is a *great* thing for people who will never be able to afford them new.

They say that your car loses half its value when you drive it off the lot. I'm fortunate in that Minis have excellent resale value, but that phenomenon is otherwise true for many cars.

A car could have just a few hundred miles on it and still cost far less than a brand new one. It makes you wonder why people buy new cars at all. The only reason I bought mine new is that I was specific in my wants. From the color-coordination of the exterior to the type of leather for the seats to the various performance upgrades, the only way to get what I really wanted was to buy it new. For other vehicles, I'd go used.

Another advantage for the used car buyer is that, once that initial drop takes place, further depreciation happens more slowly.

The buyer might be purchasing last year's luxury, but anybody with any capacity to think knows that nothing appreciable changes about the human body between one year and the next. One year old luxury is still luxury.

Used cars can provide much more value than new ones. Period.

"I am counting that people will fall in love with the luxury of the 7 series and go with the Kelly BB value when considering."

Count on it, as you say. It's a fact that it happens.

People don't like being poor (or not rich - however you want to describe it).

They feel left out. They want to experience what wealthy people do. They want to ride in limos because it makes them feel rich and important (odd since most wealthy people I know *never* ride in limos).

They go to Vegas because they get treated like royalty by hotel and casino staff. They feel important.

I've driven through many poor neighborhoods where dinky little houses with bars on the windows had Mercedes and Beemers and Jags parked out front. I always wonder how much income they're spending on the car rather than food and housing, but it's really none of my business. I also don't have a reference point - at least not from my adult life. I don't know what it's like to be convinced that I'm going to be poor for the rest of my life. I can't presume anything about their reasons, though I'll do it anyway.

I figure that they live in poverty at home, but cruise around in a little bit of wealth to escape. When they're on the road, they forget about the mortgage and bills and credit card debt.

If that helps resolve feelings of inadequacy, then it's worth it to them - the value is there. I think it's sad that people feel so insecure about money, but that's life. They might stay poor forever, but at least they got to experience a little of what they think they're missing.

What they probably don't know is that wealthy people are just as miserable as poor people. In both cases there's much reverence for material wealth. Again, it's not my place to say what's valuable for others, but, from my own experience, the pursuit of wealth and material gain has nothing to do with happiness. The one exception is travel. That's important to me, though it may not be so important to others. Aside from travel, I have my various indulgences, but I wouldn't miss them (much) were I to lose them.

Selling a luxury car to someone who's financially strapped can help that person feel like they belong to the human race. The means don't appeal to me, but everybody deserves to belong.

I realize I've focused on the lower economic classes. Obviously, there's tons of money the further up you go. I just feel that those social strata don't require much explanation.

Yep.

Again... I agree :)
May 5, 2008 2:04 PM
 

Rory said:

Chris -

One more thing... a few of your comments have been flagged as spam over the past couple weeks. Thought you'd like to know that my last one was flagged, too - even I'm not immune :)
May 5, 2008 2:07 PM
 

Rory said:

Celes -

"You already did... remember? In that Neopoleon advertisement?- in slow motion even..."

I know, but it's not the same. I'm much more attractive now. My body is also much better.

In every way, a new scantily-clad Rory is superior to the old scantily-clad Rory.

"So there's no use trying to charge for it now. All the ladies... they get it for free."

The ladies has no idea.

Back then I was just a boy.

I'm a sexy mothafucka now.
May 5, 2008 2:10 PM
 

Rory said:

Ian -

"What else do you iron? I only iron shirts."

I love that :)

I try to be careful nowadays about such things, but I miss so many. I sometimes notice them and leave them, too. Don't know why.

But you're a clever boy. Clever, clever boy :)
May 5, 2008 2:11 PM
 

Rory said:

Josh -

"It's clear to me that you have not done the appropriate legwork to decide what game is the worstest."

This is true. I'm lazy. Plus, I assumed things couldn't get any worse.

If I'm wrong, then I want to know about it. I've derived much pleasure from this business of horrible video games.

I want more.

"Prepare to have me blow your mind!"

In a cafe with low-bandwidth connection. I'll check it when I get home.

It better live down to the expectations you've set.

I want not to be disappointed, Josh.
May 5, 2008 2:13 PM
 

Tempus Fugit said:

Speaking of game engines, I finally met Darth Vista the other day! He says he is hard at work on a *large*, innovative game engine project. He says Torque looked pretty inadequate for what he was envisioning so he's rolling his own framework.  Unfortunately, he's also having to roll his own tools because of his ambitions.

He told me the other day that somebody came up to him and asked him "are you going to port this to Linux"? He clenched his fist and said "NO". "So what's with the Linux box on your desk?" I asked him. "Paperweight." He replied.

That dude is w-e-i-r-d.

P.S. He says he misses all his Channel 9 friends.
May 5, 2008 7:31 PM
 

Celes said:

"I'm a sexy mothafucka now."

Oh, Rory, how you make me laugh.

It's all bluster without any proof. But bluster does have it's comedic value, and is much of the essence of Neopoleon.

If you *do* want to get paid for it, you know, there *is* a profession that works that way.

Rory... techie, writer, podcast personality, and... stripper?

I don't know how I feel about that.

Growing up, the place I used to play MTG at was owned by a guy who was also a stripper. He was an ass... and a perv... and it sort of fit for him even if you think comix shop owner and stripper doesn't go together.

Yah.. I dunno, Rory. I just don't know.
May 5, 2008 9:41 PM
 

Chris said:

"I spent a couple years at one of the best, most expensive colleges in the country. It was amazing. I couldn't finish because I couldn't afford it"

You should have went to community college. Community college is like community software, or Linux if that makes it easier to understand.

http://www.fingerlakes.edu/

I went to that one. You could have spent your entire adult life at community college for what 1 year at harvard costs.

That's value education, and that's my tip of the day.
May 6, 2008 5:57 PM
 

Chris said:

I'll elaborate. There was this kid Ethan there. He was on his 10th year of his 2 year associates degree when I left, still collecting credits. He was in my performance and bowling classes. FLCC is right across the street from the bowling alley so they offer bowling there for credits.

At any rate, he took his time, and eventually at age 30 he got his associates degree after going non-stop out of high school. The point being that he succeeded where he would have failed at UB or RIT. I don't think he would have gotten into those schools anyway, but you get my point.
May 6, 2008 6:13 PM
 

Ian said:

Seriously? he got college credits for bowling?

I think that just said more about community college than your previous post likening it Linux did (which just made me think it had a really high entry point and for people who hadn't gone to college before)
May 7, 2008 10:37 AM
 

Rory said:

Celes -

"Oh, Rory, how you make me laugh."

Yes. I do that. I do that often. That's pretty much the only thing I do.

I play Zelda on my DS and Wii. That's something other than making people laugh that I do. But I'm frustrated with both games right now. I hate the way you can't save your progress in a dungeon on the Wii unless you have that ugly bird thing with a human face, and even then you have to warp out to save. There's no reason for it. It's asstarded.

Frustrated with the DS one because I'm on the stupid Ghost Ship and I'm having trouble with B3. I'm probably going to go read a walkthrough. I'm far too important to be wasting my time with such things.

"It's all bluster without any proof. But bluster does have it's comedic value, and is much of the essence of Neopoleon."

I provide no proof, mademoiselle, because my hawtness comes at a price. I mentioned a few figures of some thousands of dollars earlier on. Scrape together the cash - have a big spaghetti luncheon for donations - and gimme the dough. You do that, and I'll bare my my bod. Until then, it's off-limits.

I guess I could do videos shirtless just to get more attention. Didn't think of that until right now. Something to ponder, I suppose.

"If you *do* want to get paid for it, you know, there *is* a profession that works that way."

I don't like jobs where you get paid for how you look. Through the ex-fiancee, I got a modeling job thing, and only did it for a day. At the end of the day, I felt so cheap and empty that I couldn't handle it. It was horrible.

No.

None of that. If the greater part of my gorgeous skin is exposed, it'll be with some sort of intellectual tie-in.

"Rory... techie, writer, podcast personality, and... stripper?"

I used to lose clothes at parties while dancing, but it wasn't the same thing. I'd get sweaty and hot and just start taking things off. Quite fun, actually.

"I don't know how I feel about that."

I don't know how you feel about that either.
May 7, 2008 2:16 PM
 

Rory said:

Chris -

"You should have went to community college. Community college is like community software, or Linux if that makes it easier to understand."

After dropping out of high school, I spent a little time at a community college, and I loved it. It was the first time in my life I was attending school because I *wanted* to.

Looking back, there were definitely CC courses that were excellent - not what I got at my fancypants college, but still great. I learned that it came down to figuring out who the good professors were. Get the right people, and it was fabulous. 'Course, getting the wrong professors was terrible. I dropped a few courses because the instructors were so awful.

Overall, though, it was splendid. I learned a lot and met interesting people. Unlike high school where you become friends with people due to circumstance, you met people in CC because of shared interests. I developed friendships there, some of which still exist. Lost a couple for reasons that are just stupid - long, long stories - but the ones I kept are good stuff.

So, I'd totally recommend that people attend CC if they want some kind of formal education. My advice would be to listen to the other students - figure out which profs such and which know what they're doing and do it well.

"I went to that one. You could have spent your entire adult life at community college for what 1 year at harvard costs."

Yeah. I know. CC was cheap. Excellent value. I loved it. I'd go back, but I'm autodidactic - when I want to learn something, I teach myself. I'd go mainly for the fun of the communal environment. I guess I'd still learn stuff by listening to others, but... yep - my interest would be in the chatting rather than the learning.

As for Harvard - Harvard is a school for the soft, pasty, undisciplined children of the rich and powerful. It's like belonging to an exclusive health club. It's about status.

The school I attended - Reed College - was rated, at the time, the #1 school in the states for academics. The quality of the education... the rigor of the curricula... it's life changing. Reed is almost exclusively undergrad - there are a couple exceptions, and there may be more now, but nobody associates it with postgrad work. One reason is that an undergrad education at Reed is generally considered on par with masters programs at other universities. Many of my friends who chose to go on to higher education skipped right to PHd programs.

It really is an amazing place. The pace is right for people who are impatient with the lackadaisical bumbling you find at other schools. The average homework load for freshmen is four hours per night. It increases, as you'd expect, down the years. You spend your senior year writing a thesis - probably the basis for the straight-to-PHd thing. I didn't finish, as I was saying, but I wrote a Linux textbook when my friends were finishing at Reed. It might seem unrelated, but the challenge of Reed prepared me for doing something like that. The book was only about 25,000 words, but I wrote it in twelve days. Without Reed, I know I could have done it, but it would have been far more daunting, and I don't doubt it would have taken me significantly longer.

Another aspect of the Reed experience that you don't find at most schools is the round-table approach. To a great degree, the students lead the classes. The profs teach, of course, but most of the time in many classes, it was a long discussion several times a week. It taught critical thinking - we'd tear apart each other's arguments, trying to get to the truth of something. It also taught us how to present and defend an idea to a room of bastards looking to mow you over. Those lessons have stayed with me and have been key for negotiations and advancement of my own ideas.

There was also a ridiculous amount of reading and writing to do. It wasn't uncommon for an instructor to assign three books a week to read - without regard for other assignments that might be just as heavy. And I'm talking about novel-length stuff, except you're expected to discuss it and write about it. You learn to take in vast quantities of information, process it, and then form ideas you then present verbally or in writing.

Now that I think about it, it prepared me for all the writing/audio/video stuff I do. When I first got to Reed, writing a 1,500 word paper for a class per week seemed like a lot, but by the time I left it was nothing. I could sit down and crank out a quality paper of the proper length in an hour or so. 1,500 words is a fairly common post length around here - interesting...

Reed also made everything else in life look easy. Stuff that wore other people down was easy to tackle. When I was an independent I did, on more than one occasion, replace teams of people, fix or redo their work, and do so on a part-time basis. I'd also deliver sooner than they would have. I'm sure Reed had a lot to do with that.

It goes on and on... the point is that Reed isn't a typical school. CC was fun for all the interesting classes, but Reed was fun because it never let up. You had to be on your toes all the time. I really felt alive.

Harvard is a spa. Reed is an intellectual boot-camp.

Both have their value, but, given the choice without regard to cost, I'd take Reed any day. I'll never go back, though. I love it and hate it (this is normal for Reedies). I carry a lot of resentment for the cost, especially considering how much money that school has lying around. They'd spend cash on a solid gold drinking fountain before they'd give helpful financial aid (more money than would pay for your pencils).

Just remembered - Reed is where Steve Jobs went. Not that that says anything about the school. But there are things to him on which you see the stamp of Reed.

Gotta go... running late to see one of my shrinks. That's another great thing about Reed - it completely fucks everybody up mentally and emotionally :)
May 7, 2008 2:47 PM
 

Tee said:

Loved the post and I'm in the process of responding to your email.  Lots to talk about...lots.

May 7, 2008 8:24 PM
 

Celes said:

"Yes. I do that. I do that often. That's pretty much the only thing I do."

Oh, no, good sir. You do much more than that. Nay, silly-pants, you have had occasion to inspire me and put a genuine smile on this face of mine.

"I play Zelda on my DS and Wii. That's something other than making people laugh that I do."

People would laugh harder if they knew the last vg I beat was Zelda: A Link to the Past (again). I love that game. I like to replay through my old faves every once in awhile.

I also emulate and play old, old games that are new to me. I was excited to find out Earthbound was originally an NES game. Last time I played, I got killed by a hippie.

AD&D Pools of Radiance I've been playing with off and on for years. Ask my college roommate Kori how many hours I played that during the summer. She'd even watch sometimes. I can't imagine that is at all entertaining.

And I LOVE Master of Magic. Turn based strategy has such a hold over my being. Every now and then I convince myself I can beat impossible with 4 opponents mode.

So, there's no shame for your Zelda gaming when I get the urge to play Mountain King for the Atari 2600.

"I don't like jobs where you get paid for how you look. Through the ex-fiancee, I got a modeling job thing, and only did it for a day. At the end of the day, I felt so cheap and empty that I couldn't handle it. It was horrible."

I'm so glad you told me, because I was about to sign a small personal loan and wire you the money. And to think, I almost caused you harm. I would never want to make you feel cheap and empty.

I guess I'll just have to google image search for some free eye candy. Oh, well.
May 7, 2008 9:28 PM
 

Chris said:

"There was also a ridiculous amount of reading and writing to do. It wasn't uncommon for an instructor to assign three books a week to read -"

Yeah, that really sucks. I would have dropped out of any school that made me do that immediately.

That will never happen at community college. 1 book a month would be pushing it for FLCC where I went.

"Gotta go... running late to see one of my shrinks. That's another great thing about Reed - it completely fucks everybody up mentally and emotionally :)"

We all do too much drinking, partying and smoking a little marijuana in college. I know I certainly did at Brentwood, the off campus housing facility for FLCC.
Good luck with your shrink.
May 8, 2008 12:24 PM
 

Chris said:

http://www.brentwoodapartments.com/html/virtualtours.html

I just Googled it. I can't believe people didn't burn this place down. At any rate, you could smell the marijuana smoke and alcohol flavored vomit smell come out of this entire student housing complex on any given day from 2 football fields away. I spent more time there than at school, no lie. Back then the Sega Genesis CD ROM peripheral was all the rage, and boy was it more interesting than school. That and partying.

At any rate, I know why college could lead to having to see a shrink. No problem there believing that.

May 8, 2008 12:28 PM
 

Rory said:

Chris -

"He was in my performance and bowling classes."

Outside the CC vs. uni war, I love that kind of stuff. There was a joke at Reed that you could major in smoking. Looking back, smugness might have been a better match for the students, but we made it such a way of life that it'd be unnecessary to take it any further.

Yes. Those lessons of smugness have accompanied me all these years.

Worth every penny, that school.

The other school - Sarah Lawrence (also called "the Reed of the east") - actually *did* allow for similar majors. Ultimate frisbee was one. I couldn't believe it. A fine example of the value-is-in-the-eye-of-the-beholder phenomenon we've been discussing.

I think it was nearly $50,000/year for that school.

Ultimate frisbee.

You almost can't even make fun of it because it's already so retarded.
May 8, 2008 3:18 PM
 

Rory said:

Ian -

"Seriously? he got college credits for bowling?"

I haven't read Chris's response to your comment yet, but there are physical education requirements for many colleges. I know you've gone native here in the 'Merica, but just in case you've never had to think about it, if you're attending a CC for a true, formal education, you'd only go for two years. You get your Associates Degree and use that to gain entrance to a four-year university, typically completing only the junior and senior years should you be accepted. CC allows students to get the first couple years of uni out of the way cheaply so they only have to pay the bigger bucks for the more substantial parts of their undergrad educations.

I found the benefit of a four-year program to be obvious in what it teaches you about social acclimation. High school does that as well, but not, in my opinion, so well as college. That's not for everybody, of course, and it turned out that I was only able to attend those first two years. Looking back, I could have graduated if I'd just amassed the credits required to bypass the first two years. It's tricky at Reed, though, because the curricula, as I've discussed, is much more rigorous than most other schools, so two years at a CC doesn't even remotely prepare you for Reed.

That aside, I wanted the whole college experience - not just the education. I wanted the drinking, the partying, the nudity proportional to the alcohol consumed, the gun (I used to shoot people with a BB gun), and, most of all, the camaraderie. The bonds I formed with the people I lived with and attended school with were the strongest and most gratifying of my life. I wish I could find that feeling elsewhere, but haven't come close. We were all there for the same reasons, and we all felt the same way (in general) about education. We *wanted* the insanity of trying to cram so much info in our heads and the insanity of trying to push so much out.

We relied on each other and became family. Like, *real* family. There was the casualness - the lack of facade and pretense - that you get with family. Where everybody knows your bullshit and doesn't put up with it. We had coed bathrooms, so girls would be brushing their teeth five feet away from me while I did my bidniss at a urinal. Think about going to a restaurant or a bar where men and women did their bidness in the same place, at the same time. It's kind of a taboo, but it, odd as it sounds, went a long way to helping us form bonds. You see each other in these Real Life situations - the most ordinary activities. And, once we acclimated, it was just so natural.

We'd all be standing there in line to use the showers in various states of undress. The two showers were basically stalls. My friend Danny and I used to sing Everly Brothers songs over the barrier, filling the bathroom with a bit of fun. Girls would be a couple feet away, telling us we were being assholes, and to hurry up.

I didn't care if they saw me in my skivvies.

That's a closeness and comfortability I haven't shared with a group of people since.

We fought. This girl, Jesse, and I in particular really got into it over the showers. We woke up at the same time and raced to them. Not just because they would fill up soon, but because there was the Better Shower, and we'd fight for it.

Little things like that. The bathroom is a place of great privacy - when you can share that space without feeling your privacy is being violated, it says something about how you'd interact everywhere else in life.

Interesting. I never thought to define my closeness to a group by our comfort level with using the bathroom together.

That's something I couldn't have gotten at a CC. And, as someone who constantly feels like he's on the outside of every social group, it was life-changing. Aside from that, I've never felt like I belonged. There have been some recent goings-on involving a friendship with this amazing girl that have made me feel like I'm part of the world around me, but that's the first time since Reed that I've felt this way.

So, those are all benefits outside the education itself. It's really an experience - the whole demmed thing.

I just realized how tangential this comment was.

I stop now.
May 8, 2008 3:35 PM
 

Rory said:

Hey, babe -

"Loved the post"

Good... I feel that, when you like a post, it may have hit home and done what I wanted it to.

I 'preciate it, lady.

"...and I'm in the process of responding to your email."

I was wondering. I figured you'd died or, even worse, didn't want to respond.

I await your dispatch.

"Lots to talk about...lots."

Well, there's been lots of time between our talking... lots.

I wanna hear it all.

Do tell.
May 8, 2008 3:38 PM
 

Rory said:

Celes

"Oh, no, good sir. You do much more than that. Nay, silly-pants, you have had occasion to inspire me and put a genuine smile on this face of mine."

If dat's the tr0of, I thank you.

I like to do the funny stuff, but I've been in a let's-inspire-people mode lately. I wrote a post a few days ago that I want to put up, but I'm having a hard time deciding whether to do it or not. It's Personal, but I think it could help people in a general way to deal with all the crap life throws at us.

There have been many Big Issues in my noggin lately. I usually write a post in my head before typing it out, and the one I've been assembling while brushing my teeth, eating, drive, etc., is about sexuality, taboos, pr0n, misconceptions, hypocrisies, related topics that make me violently angry (sexual abuse), and more...

I think it's going to be a couple weeks before I get back to the Neopoleon absurdity. I have to get this other stuff out first...

"...the last vg I beat was Zelda: A Link to the Past (again). I love that game."

Too bad that one sucked.

There isn't the space here to justify my opinion. Just accept it for what it is (correct).

"I'm so glad you told me, because I was about to sign a small personal loan and wire you the money. And to think, I almost caused you harm. I would never want to make you feel cheap and empty."

No, no, no!

It's different here. I've actually done several modeling things - by myself, it's fun - with other people, it's crap.

I had to hang out at the beach with "friends" while we pretended to have a good time.

I have my Neopersona, but there's real humility buried deep down there.

The people I was with were completely full of themselves, and proud of their accomplishments, though their accomplishments amounted to doing things like sitting at the beach for the day and pretending to have a good time.

I'm a terrible actor, and I'm certain it's because I refuse to say someone else's words. I have too much to say of my own. I don't have time to waste memorizing someone else's stupid crap. Shakespeare excepted - I'm happy to memorize Shakespeare and break into spontaneous scenes, but that's it. He was a genius, and it never hurts to have the product of someone else's genius stuck in your head.

Modeling was like acting. Someone else tells you what to do - how to look - what your mood is.

Unless I wrote it, I'm not faking it.

That's what I learned.

So, videos of my semi-nude hawtness would *not* result in the same despondency. Rather, it would fill me with a sense of well-being, knowing that I made life a little (a lot? (tons? (infinitely?))) better by baring my gorgeous bod.

And all I ask is tens of thousands of dollars.

You can't put a price tag on sultry joy. You can, however set the suggested donation at about $10,000 or so.
May 8, 2008 3:50 PM
 

Celes said:

"Too bad that one sucked.

There isn't the space here to justify my opinion. Just accept it for what it is (correct)."

Woah. Strong feelings there. I respect that (not so fickle as to just accept it), so long as you don't talk smack about Zelda: The Adventure of Link... People who say "Hello, young fellow." and all.

To be fair, I don't own a Wii or a DS, so I'm sure I'm missing out too. The only Wii game I've played yet was a Paper Mario game which I really enjoyed.

Once I have money again- and with a new job that should be soon- I may break down and buy one. I am really down with some of things they've done to emphasize things like fun, game play, and innovation when- graphics be damned- that's really what it's all about.

But be careful what you say of the old school, my brutha. They're my good childhood memories. Zelda: ALTTP was my 1st Super Nintendo game besides Mario World.

"I'm having a hard time deciding whether to do it or not. It's Personal, but I think it could help people in a general way to deal with all the crap life throws at us. "

I hear ya. I consider myself a brutally honest, will say anything type of person and even I ask myself whether or not I should post personal stuff. More than making myself look one way or another, I worry about other people in the stories. Even if no one else knows it's them I'm speaking of, they would know. Yeah, etc. Posting stuff like that is invaluable to readers, but also takes a lot of courage- willingness to have all sorts of possibilities of all kinds of backlash.

I say go for the serious stuff. This blog is about you after all- and I think its great that it's starting to be about more sides of you. All kinds of flavah and depth...

And I think you'll have a harder time moving on to 'funny & techie' Neopoleon again if you resist the other crap floating in the noggin.

"So, videos of my semi-nude hawtness would *not* result in the same despondency. Rather, it would fill me with a sense of well-being, knowing that I made life a little (a lot? (tons? (infinitely?))) better by baring my gorgeous bod."

Okay, you got me. I was totally bluffing. I have no $10,000 interest in seeing you bare your semi naked body. I just didn't want to hurt your feelings. I sincerely hope you are not crushed by this and we can still be the best of internet friends.

"You can't put a price tag on sultry joy. You can, however set the suggested donation at about $10,000 or so."

Oh, this is a suggested donation? I *totally* misunderstood. M-kay. Here's five bucks...
May 8, 2008 8:40 PM
 

Ian said:

"I just realized how tangential this comment was"

It was, but it was also very,very interesting
May 9, 2008 7:13 AM
 

Rory said:

Celes -

"I am really down with some of things they've done to emphasize things like fun, game play, and innovation when- graphics be damned- that's really what it's all about."

I sort of agree... they've done an excellent job with the fun and innovation, and "innovation" is a word I use sparingly as it's lost its meaning over the years thanks to geeks who have no idea what it means.

B'yeah - Zelda for the Wii is fantastic, and I love the way it plays. Where I don't agree is the graphics bidniss. The graphics basically suck, and as the 360 and PS3 have shown, there's absolutely no reason good gameplay and quality graphics and coexist. They're not mutually exclusive - not at all. With or without fabulous graphics, Nintendo is all about gameplay. Snazzy graphics, however, would make the overall experience *far* better.

There are crappy graphics that remind me of consoles as old as SNES. Like in Zelda - when the game is in nighttime mode, you look off into the horizon and see distinct, abrupt gradations from the lighter, lower bits of the sky up to the darkness overhead. It took me all the way back... that sort of thing was fine on the SNES, but it's *not* cool on a "modern" console.

Plus, 480p - what's up with that? The 360 allows for play in HD or SD. The SD mode may suck, but it shows that MS is thinking about the future. Consoles have long shelf lives - the WII's hardware was dated when it came out - long before, actually. Things are *not* trending toward SD, but toward HD - an obvious fact, but one Nintendo ignored.

I haven't read any rationalizations for why Nintendo did 480p (and crappy graphics) rather than HD, but I'd guess that one of the justifications would be that not everybody owns an HD TV yet. While true, people *are* replacing their TVs. HD isn't just some high-end consumer thing - not anymore, anyway. By going cheap on the hardware, Nintendo produced a console that, compared to the other major consoles (and even the PSP), looks like a Speak 'n Spell.

I've noticed a tendency in the ol' human-beings to see emphasis of one feature of a thing as an indication that something else about the thing is going to be inadequate. As I was saying earlier, gameplay absolutely does not have to suffer because the hardware's better.

High-res games have been coming out for years - if you count computers, the graphics capabilities of the WII almost look like they're outmatched by hardware from the late 90s.

Yeah.

Bit of a rant, but I've been playing my Wii a lot lately, and the cheap hardware annoys me - not just because of the Wii, but because of every single other console Nintendo's ever made, save the SNES which had far superior hardware than the Genesis.

The crappy graphics are "cute" on the DS - as long as you aren't trying to play a game with any complex 3D mumbo-jumbo, the DS rocks. But, when there *is* 3D stuff going on, just as with the Wii, it looks sooooooooo cheap. Zelda's the game where I've seen this the most lately. In cutscenes, there's *bad* pixelation. Just bad.

Now, take Kameo for example. It was one of the first games for the 360, and it's frikkin' *amazing*. It felt a bit like a Zelda game in many ways, and I thought of Zelda often while playing it. More action-based than Zelda, but still an adventure game with... well, it's a feeling. Don't know quite how to describe it.

The graphics are gorgeous, and the gameplay is just as good. If you've never played it, find someone who has it. I'd invite you over for a weekend of nerdery, but you live on the other side of the country, so that's not gonna happen.

It's great, though... just uber great. I've been meaning to play it again. I haven't played since... 2005? Not sure. And there's another funny thing - the 360 came out long before the Wii, but it's a bajillion years ahead in its hardware, yet great games are still made for it.

Keep in mind as well that there are tons of crappy Wii games. That said, the ones that are good are really, really, really, really, *really* good. Dey just don' have dem great hardwares.

When a game is available for both consoles, I'd *never* think to buy the Wii version. The one exception I'd make is if the Wii offered a better gaming experience due to the wiimote, but a game that appears on multiple platforms is unlikely to be specialized for any one beyond having to crap-down the graphics for the primitive console.

Yep.

Again, bit of a rant, but it needed saying.

Oh, yes.

It needed saying.

"But be careful what you say of the old school, my brutha. They're my good childhood memories. Zelda: ALTTP was my 1st Super Nintendo game besides Mario World."

Ohhhhhh... for some reason I thought it was the second Zelda game - the one for the NES. I forget the name of it, but it was horrible.

The SNES Zelda rocked. I didn't own it, but I rented it a couple times and very, very much wanted to buy it. Just didn't have the moolah.

I grabbed an emulator not too long ago and played it for a while. Not enough to hold my attention compared to the Wii and DS games, but still a fabulous game. I much prefer the cartoony feel of that Zelda, Wind Waker, and the DS Zelda. The darkness of the Wii Zelda makes the game gloomy. As for the newer ones, the cell-shading bidniss, I think, looks better on crappy hardware, so that's another place I think Nintendo screwed up a bit. They probably did it so that it wouldn't look too much like WW - the Wii Zelda is built on a modified WW engine, so too many similarities might have made it feel like the same game.

Still... I want me cute graphics back.

"I say go for the serious stuff. This blog is about you after all- and I think its great that it's starting to be about more sides of you. All kinds of flavah and depth..."

Thanks, lady... I do appreciate the encouragement. I've always had a hard time talking about serious stuff. I like to think I'm an articulate, well-expressed gent, but when talking about my emotions, I *cannot* find the words much of the time. I saw my shrink yesterday, and spent five minutes trying to figure out how to label a feeling I'd had recently.

I see things in my head in odd ways. At least I think they're odd - might be perfectly normal. Dunno. But the feeling I was trying to name looks like a grey bar with what looks like grey dropping off the bottom - like melting icicles in a way, I suppose.

I can talk about that, but it doesn't mean anything to other people.

Or with Tee - when I talk to her, I see a large, blue, fuzzy circle in my head. We're represented inside it by a couple dots. I think it's representative of the unity I feel with her. When we talk, we don't have to explain anything. I say things to her that other people would ask me a bunch of questions about for clarification. With her, it's simpatico - we're that blue, fuzzy circle together. I don't feel lonely or isolated when I talk to her.

But, it's still hard for me to say exactly what it means. I've thought about the Tee example a lot because it's popped up enough that it feels like a permanent fixture. If it was going to stick around, I wanted to try to get to the bottom of things. I *want* to understand my feelings.

I just don't.

So, when I feel all these emotion things, I clam up. For many reasons, but one being that I don't know how to express those emotions well. Most of the time, I use words like "good," "bad," "depressed," "anxious," and "happy." There are a few others, but it's usually something general like these, except for the many shades of depression and anxiety, as I'm quite familiar with them.

I thank you again, then. I get really self-conscious about the personal stuff. I feel vulnerable.

But you're right - if I don't get these things out of my head, I can't get back to the funny. I sometimes wait it out, but there's been so much confusion as of late that I think I might *have* to write about it.

Yep.

As always, you make me feel good. It's nice.

"Okay, you got me. I was totally bluffing. I have no $10,000 interest in seeing you bare your semi naked body. I just didn't want to hurt your feelings. I sincerely hope you are not crushed by this and we can still be the best of internet friends."

Maybe there'll be a sale.

Or a coupon.

Or you could get a loan.

I hate to deny people This.

Don't let your selfishness get in the way.
May 9, 2008 1:04 PM
 

Rory said:

Ian -

"It was, but it was also very,very interesting"

Thank you :)
May 9, 2008 1:05 PM
 

Celes said:

Rory-kun

"there's absolutely no reason good gameplay and quality graphics and coexist"

Totally agree- but in my mind, if you were to have great game play and lame graphics, it could still be an awesome game. However, a game with fantabulous graphics and shitty game play can never be good.

"..that sort of thing was fine on the SNES, but it's *not* cool on a "modern" console."

I thought by now we'd have home virtual reality systems, and instead we have this. Although I really am more concerned with the mediocrity of video games in their gameplay, stories, characters, and all that comes with the 'i' word, I feel your frustration.

"Consoles have long shelf lives - the WII's hardware was dated when it came out"

One more reason that I didn't take a hard stance in the Wii/Xbox360/PS3 wars. While the Wii intrigues me, you're right, it's not where it should be.

"the cheap hardware annoys me - not just because of the Wii, but because of every single other console Nintendo's ever made, save the SNES which had far superior hardware than the Genesis. "

Once upon a time when I was little, I played computer games at my Grandparents house in the basement where my Uncle Mike lives. There were SO many games I played for say, the Atari St, and then saw on the NES butchered soon after. Don't get me wrong, I loved my NES, but I was very disappointed on how everything seemed like a big step back. I know I'm talking consoles versus computers, and I understand that it was a matter of economics (and it's why Nintendo is still here today), but I still felt sadly empty playing the NES version of Impossible Mission. On the flip side, there are many early PC & Atari games that when brought to the NES had music added where there was none before. Maniac Mansion and AD&D: Pools of Radiance to name a couple have neat tunes and benefited.

Why is there a pattern of stepping back with this stuff after going so far forward?

"The graphics are gorgeous, and the gameplay is just as good. If you've never played it, find someone who has it. I'd invite you over for a weekend of nerdery, but you live on the other side of the country, so that's not gonna happen."

If I ever find myself in Portland, I'll take you up on that. It is not an impossibility. Perhaps we can also play croquet. Until then, I'll prod the lil brother to get it for his X-box360.

"...for some reason I thought it was the second Zelda game - the one for the NES. I forget the name of it, but it was horrible."

Hey! I liked that one too! I mean, it was controversial to be sure, but if you look at the one for the SNES, it was a combination of all the best things about the 1st and 2nd Zeldas with it's own awesomeness as well.

Once again, though, it's context. It's hard to hold any of these games up to today's standards.

"Still... I want me cute graphics back."

You and a ton of other Zelda fans. I don't know how I feel about it, and won't until I play it. I'm so behind on newer VGs because I never bought the new systems... to busy moving and living in tents. Now that I'm settled again, and will have money soon, I should be doing some serious 'research'.

"But the feeling I was trying to name looks like a grey bar with what looks like grey dropping off the bottom - like melting icicles in a way, I suppose."

Regardless if people get what you mean by that decription,  it's a great image.

"Most of the time, I use words like "good," "bad," "depressed," "anxious," and "happy." There are a few others, but it's usually something general like these, except for the many shades of depression and anxiety, as I'm quite familiar with them."

I know what you mean. I think people share common experiences and feelings, but I also firmly believe that some people (myself included) feel very differently than most people... more sensitive and therefore feel a wider range and shades of things that are hard to put into words. And on top of that, once you find the words, the person still can't properly ready them because it's outside of their experience- they don't have that common language. So, you put your feelings into words with the reward of seeming barmey.

Then there are those out there who get it and appreciate the connection. Even for those who don't may still relate on some level or, because they like the world of Neopoleon, at least try to understand (making it easier for the other crazies of the world).

"As always, you make me feel good. It's nice."

Which in turn makes me feel nice. The fuzzies spread like apple butter.

"Maybe there'll be a sale. Or a coupon."

Sir, are you hitting on me? Such a romantic, you... to offer such a bargain. ;)
May 9, 2008 3:11 PM
 

Chris said:

"Seriously? he got college credits for bowling?"

Absolutely. Bowling class at FLCC was held at Roseland bowl right across the street from the college.

You don't have to be good at bowling, you don't even have to bowl. You just have to show up when they do head count, then leave.

"I think that just said more about community college than your previous post likening it Linux did (which just made me think it had a really high entry point and for people who hadn't gone to college before)"

Oh no, you misunderstood. Community college is the LOWEST entry point in the US for higher education. I had a NYS regents diploma with an overall avg in the 80s, but most of the people there with me had a GED or something.

Community college is either for the poorly educated, the poor, the middle aged returning to school, or the cheap.
As Rory said you will get some good teachers there once in a while, but most of them are pretty ordinary.

I never liked the preppy side of the American educational system, and I don't like the pompous and pretentious atmosphere at some better American schools I have visited. I didn't even like RIT.

People are so serious there. Like get out of my way, I'm here to get an education type attitude. You'll almost never get that at most community colleges. It's very layed back and friendly.
May 9, 2008 3:21 PM
 

C said:

I made a typo, that should read "laid back", not "layed back". I also went to public school my whole life. A lot, but not all of people in the nicer colleges went to private school. Pretty much everybody in community college comes from the public school system.
May 9, 2008 3:25 PM
 

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